I was worried I’d have to go through collections… *sigh.*
so I paid some bills. a very rewarding feeling, to have the ones and zeroes in my account actually total something I can pay some bills with. fewer angry letters coming at me every month. it occurs to me that I actually enjoy signing my signature…. that I hadn’t done so in a while. it was a strange feeling. having had no money to pay bills, no occasion to sign my signature…. wierd. It feels better with bills paid, but I’m still $150, I think, behind on my sprint bill. *loathes sprint.* I will have some money next week because I worked last weekend catering. for $9 per hour. I think I need help. filling out online applications (especially when they don’t work thank you americorps) gives me mondo anxiety. but I just need to do it.
thanks. gawd. yes, my god is actually spelled "gawd." sometimes it’s other names….
it’s been a little anxiety/depression battle this week. mostly, a carry over from last week. holding my breath until the money came in from the mass-casualty evaluation I did for the national guard on the seventh anniversary of september 11. my first role as a paid actor. 🙂 I hadn’t realized I’d been holding my breath that much. but I can exhale now. put some bills in the mail.
*register to vote* if you haven’t already.
much loves, anna
ps. been listening to meditation tape by Belleruth Naparstak. it’s been helping. 🙂