hi from day five…
I *really* wanted some wine or whiskey last night when I got home at 7pm from a long day. my friend mike, whose house I go to after work on tuesdays to hang out, asked me, "would you like an adult beverage?" he makes the most lovely martinis – like vodka with special sauce, cause I don’t know what’s in them usually, but they are strong. I was reminded of weeks past, when I enjoyed his lovely question-mark-tinis, and then went home and had a bunch more to drink… I told him that I was giving up the sauce for a while, and why (it has felt out of control for a long time) and he said, congratulations. anything I can do to help.
he’s married to an also-dear friend, and we’ve had many conversations about his marriage, my firm stance of not being a marriage-interrupter. so, that said, we snuggled on his couch and watched king of the hill and the simpsons. it was totally nice. he can be my "surrogate boyfriend" for a while until I get one of my own. he’s a really good dude. we talked about his weekend, my weekend. I finally broke down and watched twilight. SPARKLY MORMON VAMPIRES, OMG. DUDE. I couldn’t stop laughing. (mike vows never to watch.) I could say, really, that I want to support Washington-made films, because it’s filmed in Forks, WA. but I really watched it because of ! damn you rosary!!!!!
then I went home, started cooking (pretty much everything I cook is some variation on mac&cheese), and thought about how harmless it would be to have ONE glass of wine while cooking… then decided against it because lately, I haven’t been able to have JUST ONE… so I drank juice! and cut vegetables. I find cutting vegetables to be very relaxing. and listened to my playlist "kane nathanson carlson" on my ipod.
casserole turned out beautiful. I used cream of brocoli soup as a base, so it kind of came out as a "st patrick’s day" themed’ green. somehow the food I make manages to look really gross, yet taste really good. I need to work on my presentation. yepper.
I watched "the mod squad" on demand. I KNOW. it’s not a terrific film by many standards (it meets the eye-candy-standard), but I enjoyed it all the same. a little reward for myself…
also… will post later about how much money I’ve spent on booze in the past few months… I’m prepared to be scared/startled. but not to waver.
ETA: $ 420.65 since January 10, 2009 by trackable expenses via online statements. it excludes all cash payments, and might include some food. So I figure it evens out. That’s about $112 per month on booze, and I make $930 after taxes. which means 11% of my monthly income. which grace-fully now, can go to worthier causes (like finding sexy clothes or getting back in shape.)
comments are e-love…
There isn’t a moment in any day, anna , when someone, somewhere, isn’t better off because of something you’ve done.
And no matter what you do, or don’t do, with the rest of your life, you cannot now comprehend the amounts of love, joy, and personal assistance that are already being pressed out to you in gratitude.
Must be nice,